My dad died and other hazard of the headache medicine

So Saturday I woke up in tears thinking I needed to call my mom to help her with my dad's funeral arrangements. I kept thinking things like "I hope my little sister is doing okay. Man, dad is never going to get to walk her down the aisle now." "I wonder what mom will do with the shop he just bought." "I hope he had enough life insurance for us to pay off any of his debts and burry him." "Man I hope Becky doesn't take my painted saw before I get there (my dad gave me this really cool painted saw for graduation, but they won't ship it so he has it for now)." etc. The dream I had had was so real that I honestly thought he was dead and I was mildly hysterical thinking of not getting home in time.

Yeah. Nice dream eh? It took me a good 15 min. to realize it wasn't real and I still had to call him just to make sure he was okay. I'd been told that weird dreams were a side effect of the pamelor, but I could handle the other ones I had. I'd wake up thinking "What the heck was that about?" and know it was fake. This one though, this one was way too real and a totally sucky way to start the morning. Yes, my dad is doing fine btw.

So aside from the dreams, there is the weightloss because I can't eat anything. Everything tastes metallic and it is nasty. Sit down for this. I don't like Coke. Yeah I know, scary right? Plus the dizzyness when I stand up, the staying up until 2 am, and no alcohol at all. I drink a glass of wine before bed every now and again when I can't sleep because it helps relax me and I couldn't do that on this medication. Oh. And I didn't scrapbook for 2 1/2 weeks. Nothing. Not a page, no digital, no stamping. I was totally not creative. I drank gallons of water a day to help with the dry mouth and nothing was helping. All in all it sucked.

I saw the doctor today and he gave me Indomethacin to help with the headaches plus Prednisone (it's a steriod) and Elavil. I have to re-read my info because I can't remember what all they are for right now. It should help with the headaches though and if it doesn't he'll be doing an MRI. We don't have an MRI machine at our hospital and he has to use the Japanese machine. They tend to get upset if the person using it isn't close to death or dying and if that's a requirement for using it I think I'll pass. A side effect of the medications is I'll be more irratable (oh joy) and I'll have way more energy. So if I take them in the PM I'll be up until 3 am cleaning. At least my house will be cleaner right? The pamelor made me not care about the house and you can tell. It's way dirtier then it normally is and I've been cleaning again.

A good thing about the headaches? I had to go to the dentist and found out all 4 wisdom teeth are compacted. So September 12 I get them taken out for free. WOOHOO I guess. At least I won't have to pay for it right? The doctor is going to numb my hand before they put the IV in to help with my needle phobia. Cody gets his teeth out on the 1 of September so that'll be fun for both of us. No garlic for almost a month because we're not allowed to have it for like two weeks before we go in and I don't want to have it if Cody can't have it and vise versa. *sigh* and I use garlic in everything.

Other than that things are going well. Wes calls Zach "Zachee" now which is really cute to me. Zach is excited about school and I'm excited for him to go. A little sad thought. I just can't believe how big he is now. My dad said "Just wait. Pretty soon you'll be remembering his first day of school as he tells you about his baby's first day of school." Poor daddy.

Wes is getting terribly big as well, but he still naps with me often and cuddles me. I've been trying to enjoy it as much as possible so I'm not one of those moms spending so much time wishing things were like they used to be instead of enjoying how they are now.

And I've decided I hate country music. It's playing right now and it always makes me sad. Just too... I can't think of the word, but damn it is depressing sometimes.