Future Plans?

So the orders we were looking forwarded to were canned. I've been told by other people in other squadrons that it shouldn't happen with his first failed PT test, that it should only happen after he failed several times in a row. That may be how it works for them, in their squadrons, but in Cody's squadron... a failure means they fuck you over if it means they don't have to lose their go to guy. I can admit that this angered me. How dare they screw around with him and his career like that when it wasn't a punishment they had to do to me. Contrary to what they tell him, they had options that didn't end with him getting the shaft.

I'm okay now. I'm still angry they've screwed him over. I'm angry that nothing has come down saying the orders are officially canceled and it leads me to believe that come Dec 11, we'll get a phone call asking why he isn't in Korea reporting for duty.

And yet now of this matters now. They finally screwed him over in such a way that's he's done playing the game. We could handle them calling him in when someone else was on call, we could handle the estrodrama with some of the women he works with, we could handle the low pay, we could handle them not paying for some medical things they should be covering ... This though? This made us both question why he'd stay in.

With as many people as we've met in the years he's been in the military, I've only met one that joined solely for love of country. Everyone else joins because of what the military life can provide for them. They join for a variety of reasons, but in the end, they join and stay because it's beneficial for them do so. So what do you do when staying in no longer benefits you as much as you once thought it did?

You get out. He hasn't told anyone yet because he doesn't want to be put on bitch duty for the next year. That's the plan though. He's starting looking at jobs in Portland and we plan to move there as soon as he can go on terminal leave. He'll have a job that will pay him more money then the Air Force ever would. We'll be able to afford things like $9k worth of medical bills in one year. We can finally do some things we've wanted to do for a while.

In a way, I'm glad they finally screwed him over enough that he wants to get out. While I mourn a little for the life we'd planned for ourselves and the opportunities we're now missing, I can't help but be a little excited for what we'll get to do now.

The moving around was good for us and I enjoyed it while the boys were young. The older they get though, the more I think about how this life style would effect them. I made the best of it while we faced the possibility of military life for 20 years and I can't help but be happy I don't have to do that. Cody always tells me that he's glad I can roll with the punches and make the best of whatever happens to us. I'm glad I have the coping mechanism, but I'm also glad that I won't have to use it as much.

I hope it ends up being the way having a child at 17 was. It was scary and painful at first and in the end, it worked out such that I wouldn't have done it differently if I could.